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Sunday, March 12, 2017

Being a mother

I dont know how to start the post. I was lying down thinking about my baby, about the mischieves she does, the cute smile she gives when she knows she did wrong, about how will I tell her all this when she grows up. Will I remember all this at that time. And then I thought why not pen it down so that the memories are never lost.
If I could, I would live each day a million times.
I haven even started writing anything yet and I already feel overwhelmed.
Anyways, what is so special about her that I don't want to forget anything.
I don't know. Its just everything she does, every action of hers, every gesture which i try to decode.
She is 21 months old and she is learning few words.
The words she quickly picked are Cow and Baby. So she calls everything by that name. Every doggy, soft toys are baby for her and every bird, cow, are Cow for her.
I started showing her rhymes in my laptop before she was one I think. While she would watch the rhymes, it would give me sometime to do some other stuff.
But look at that, at this age(21 months), she is bored of them already. She wants me to keep changing the rhyme until the one she likes plays down.
Sometimes I feel she is bored of almost every rhyme on youtube. The new ones she wont listen to and the old ones she is tired of listening to.
The best part is that we started putting her to sleep by singing the rhymes as lullaby. So, when she doesn't like the rhyme I am singing, she taps on my mouth hinting me to change the song. And this goes on until I sing the one of her choice.
I have seen no kid become so choosy already. I think now i get to say "Kids of this generation..Gawdd..."

When she is very bored and hyper, and she finds no source entertainment, she will start throwing tantrums.. When I ask her to behave herself, she'll know that she has my attention, And there she goes, she 'll repeat it over and over again, laugh loudly, run away from me but wont stop so that she doesn't loose my attention.

I was on the phone with my mom and I hardly noticed when she opened my cupboard, sat inside and called me out. "Mumma!!!"
I found her cutely trying to fit in my shelf. I asked her to come out so that she doesn get hurt. But she kept on smiling and calling my name so that I keep looking at her.

There have been times when I am lying down relaxed watching tv and she crawls up to me, will sit next to me, keep my arm beside her. rest herself on my body and relax. I cannot express what that feeling is.

I guess being a mother is the best thing in the world. They say being a mother is not easy, but when ever I think about it, its not her tantrums I remember, its not how i managed work with her crying, its only her smile I remember. I think now i exactly know what they call a million dollar smile. And if only looks could kill, it would be hers and I would have died a million times already.

Sunday, February 15, 2015

Hope


Whats a hope worth
When in trouble, is it someone who comes forth
Or is it that consolation inside you
Asking you to give it a shot before you turn blue
Or a friend by your side holding your hand
Telling you, you aren't alone when you stand
May be your family with confidence in their eyes
That the night will be gone as the time flies
Your spouse looking at you all the faith he has in you
You can do it just whatever it is that you want to do
Its this hope that lets you fight with just anything
One can face their problems while they happily sing
Just a hope and you are through
Just go ahead and do what you want to do

Tuesday, February 10, 2015

What do I miss?

He asked me what do I miss about Bangalore
What are the moments that I still adore
Surprised I looked at him not knowing what to say
There is so much that I miss, I want to share, if I may
Small moments of happin ess with my friends
Them trying to fool you while the other pretends
The biryani with chips just next to my PG
Moments that were cheerful and some  that were cheesy
Random drives to Koramangala to have momos
That cluttering of crowds to outside the college stores
The awesomest birthdays ever
Their concern when you are down with fever
The Nice road drives on the bikes and cars
Listening to music below the stars
Uncountable moments hard to jot down
Just feel like I had the happiness crown
Bangalore, oh I miss Bangalore

Everything about you I adore.

Wedding jitters



Where shud I start or end
Like a wet mud I was ready to blend
But to what extent was the thought that never crossed
Upon asked I thought big deal, whats the fuss
I get it now as it all comes to me at once
Was no more a kid and it happened in a span of few months
Things around me have changed and changed a lot
What should i do and what not, is the only thought
Things i do or say travels the other way round
Things i never meant, have offended ppl was found
Stuck between everyone and their thoughts
And their ear pleasing taunts
Had few expectations from someone which is well thrashed
My dreams and happiness are now properly mashed
Havin no expectations from someone still manages to hurt
Just cause the words that come out are way too blunt
Driving me crazy and I wanna run away
So far that noone knows where I stay
Thats not gonna give me happiness either
Probably just my frustration and tweets on twitter
Have to live this and will get through I know
I am no weak, I ought to show...

life



life.. strange turn of events
life.. mixed with weird moments
life.. makes u smile when u least expect
life.. tears u up and leaves u wrecked

why am I sad when I have it figured out
when I know the problem why do I wanna shout
I always knew this is how its goin to be
This was a future long back i could foresee
A life I have chosen to live the way it is
Then why have my hands suddenly come to freeze
I would speak up if I had someone to listen to
I am blamed after every pain I went through
Understanding is a word long lost in the dictionary
I wud just keep shut and talk to him through pictionary
A smile as a reply for everythin he says
wats on my mind, oh.. c'mon.. who cares
wud end my life right now if I could
But This is not somethin I shud..
So lets just face it and prepare myself for it
Let the show begin for me to be a spectator and sit..

The Only Solution



The only solution to our problem is to hang up
No matter how I feel, you Will just hang up
I can feel bad and I can get mad
But i would never do that back
Cause I know how insulted how I feel when you do that
Cant imagine making you feel like crap
So ya, you dont care and you will do it
NO matter who you are doing it with
Not the first time you hung up on me
But I guess my fault that I just let it be
Well doesn matter at all, does it
If it does, I am sure you will not repeat it.

Being Loved



When I was young, I had a dream
A dream am sure every girl would have seen
A prince charming riding the horse
With loads of love in his eyes, o├žourse
The unknown face of the prince is now known to me
The love we share seems like thats how it was meant to be
Every morning with a wake up kiss
Every moment with him is like a magical bliss
Wishes fulfilled before spoken
No work left undone
Random dinner dates with him
And his stupid taunts for me to get slim
Random flirting statements just to get my reaction
But a love confession he wouldn forget to mention
Concern behind his temper when I dont eat
His ways for me are just too sweet
I love him like I have never felt before
There is nothing else that I could have asked for more
I love you sweetheart, always stay the same
I am lucky to have shared your name